Looking at the differences....

Here I am..... Yes our baby did eventually come.  She was born March 9th.   She is adorable and an amazingly good baby.   We have enjoyed these few weeks of just hanging out and not having to go anywhere or do much.  But I can't just sit and stare at her all day long unfortunately.  I started back at work this week and it has been interesting to try to find a time of the day that works best.  That will be a work in progress for a while.

I just wanted to write about how different this delivery was from the past ones.  More specifically my previous hypnobabies delivery.  I practiced my hypnobabies this pregnancy as well as my previous one and it was different even in my practice.   Last time I felt like I fell asleep everytime I did them.  Maybe I was more exhausted last time...  or I just always did my practices at night so I was always tired by then....who knows.  This time I felt like I drifted off but not completely out.  I felt like I did it in the day time more when I wasn't quite so tired or exhausted yet.
This time I also had my experiences from last time to remember things or which tracks I liked most.  I used deepening the most last time, I listened to that one all the time.  This time I mixed it up more and rarely listened to deepening because I just didn't feel like I connected with that one or wanted that one.  There are probably 10-12 tracks to choose from.  I also purchased a few extra ones to help flip my baby from breech to head down, and the come out baby.  I thought they were well worth the money.  My baby did flip after a few times of listening to that track, and my baby was born a few days after listening to that come out baby track a few times. 

My last delivery I relaxed and sat down a lot.  I woke up at night when the waves started and I sat on the couch and relaxed through them.  This time I tried to sit down in mulitple positions and it just wasn't happening.  It was not comfortable for me.  My body was wanting to move.  I swayed a lot through the waves and it felt great.
Last time I remember once I got admitted to the hospital and they let me get in the tub it was amazing.  It felt so good.  I have always loved a warm relaxing bath. It really helped me progress and dilate.   This time I wanted to stay home as long as possible for multiple reasons. One being the hospital just had a normal sized tub this time and we have a rather large tub in our house so I figured I would use it.  I did and I was only in about 30 min and then I was done I wanted to be moving and it just wasn't working for some reason. 
This delivery was all about movement and I felt like I really was connected mind to body.  I tried different things and some worked and some didn't.  My doula brought a rebozo wrap and that was amazing it was kind of like the lift and tuck from last delivery.  It would tighten up around my belly to help lift and tighten during the waves.  We walked and did that for about 2 hours I think.  The waves weren't that bad.  I wasn't even being vocal about them.  I wasn't talking through them because I was relaxing and focusing on them.
Something else that was different this time is that I was listening to my tracks almost the whole time I was in actual labor.   Last time I stopped once I got to the hospital.  This made a big difference too.   Also this time Jared was also saying my que words.  We were more on the same page which helped a lot. 
 I had really wanted to feel my water break this time because with my previous 3 they had all broke my water.  I got what I wished for and it was nothing like I imagined.  I was standing there and just felt a little leak down my leg and it kept going like that but only during the during the waves.  I was exited that I got to finally experience that.
I just felt like I was able and willing to listen to my body more this time and that helped a ton.  It was a pretty fast and easy delivery for me.  I felt like it went by fast and it was awesome.  I was so proud that it went so well.  I didn't have to get the saline lock like my midwife had said I would have to do.  I stayed at home so long  that I was a 7 when I got to the hospital.  It was only about 90 min in the hospital before she was born.  It turned out better than I could have imagined.  She was born in the shower and I loved every minute of it.   I have written up a very detailed birth story so I can remember it all.  If you want to read more about it let me know.  Some people don't like reading and seeing crazy pictures but I love them.

Anyway  that is what has been going on here at our house.  We love having her here and her sibling love her so much.  Its crazy how fast you forget things about newborns and every stage I guess.